Dear,

I wasn't well today, throat inflammation, probably my tonsils issues, it's leading me on a roller coaster fever ride and headaches. I only took 1 day MC though, as much as i'm tempted to take 2... i didn't wanna, cause Saturday i won't be working, i've enough free time to rest or whatsoever. Remember i told i had pax issues? So as i though it was solved, it was not... she didn't like the acc that she got... I hope it's been solved, after some time i'm trying to start afresh without your presence, and now when this issue came up, i just start missing you all over again. Now it's twice as hard to pick myself back up, be stronger and start anew. I know i'm bound to make mistakes at work, but i don't really like it, when i'm trying to solve the issue but pax leaves me hanging. Like how you leave me hanging now... I'm sorry i didn't mean to rub it in, but i really just wanna run to your arms now! Only your hugs are comforting to me... I realized how the rest can only numb me or actually in fact how i'm so pretentiously happy with them playing along with them, when all i want to do is punch someone/somethings, cry my heart out, scream my lungs out and get some major distractions that will take up my time & lessen my thoughts of you. But still i should let you know, at the end of the day, all i wanna be..is to be in your arms again. I'm so numb right now. Dear, i really can be strong enough to be with my friends when i need them, but i'm actually thinking is there anyone who's actually stronger than me and still be able to understand me. It's a sad truth. Well, i still love all my friends. But ya.. i was born in this world alone.. i probably should start adapting till you're back to take care of me... that is IF you still got the intentions to do so. I really want you back, i forgot how happiness taste likes, how comforting and safe it was just to be in your arms. Even as days goes by, surprise Dear? This saggitarius is still madly in love with you!!! Even though, cute guys comes and goes, they only manage to get 30 secs of my attentions, other than that it's all back to you and only you. I'm patient for you.. Are you patient there too? OOh..in case...i'm going to start taking my meds...i fear my tonsils getting worse and then end up i've to go for surgery or whatsoever... and i want to take care of myself too...

I wanna be yours as much as you want to be mine.

Loving & Missing You Always,

Nur Hida Sulaiman.