Dear,
I'm missing you a lot these days, in fact i miss you more and more as days goes by... I miss being happy, i miss being sooo happy with you!!! Today's sunday, it was a lazy day for me, but still went out with Mummy Rango and her BFF, yes Dear, it's 3 pax again... and we did go home late today, think we only reach home at about 9 plus... Can imagine you to keep texting me asking our wherebouts, and what time we intend to go home.. Miss you being worried when i'm out without you, miss your jealousy over me... bluek! Anyway..only went to J8 and then we proceed to Suntec, i kinda shop... though it's just sale... but yea...i tink i bought about 3 new tops & 3 new dresses... heh... err ya... whee?! i was able to distract myself to not think about anything or anyone or even you just by looking @ clothes...trying stuffs on... i think i probably i'm able to get used to shop alone..but not go out alone.. So probably, i'll bring someone to keep me company..then when i enter a shop..i'll abandon them? But then again i don;t like being alone... Though now it's pretty the same..unless i'm home at my own corner...i can be 120% myself...not to have to pretend anymore... smiling here and there...taking it's all fine. I gotta admit though these past few days i'm so tempted to light back a cigarette, but i decided not to.. i don;t wanna. Oh ya..Dear! Forgot to tell you, yesterday my lil cuz shared with me an interesting convo she had with Mummy Rango.. Mummy Rango said "now that ida working ready, nvm..she can have BF...that time sch i said cannot cause i want her to focus on studies, now she work ready, up to her..." i was kinda relieve and glad to find out, how i wish i could give you a call and just say HOORAY! haha, but you ain't here... I wonder if your proposal is ready though? As in NOT marriage proposal but probably your formal presentation first maybe? I'm pretty random and forgetful at times, but i think last week...Cind ask me this question... oh my..i'm SHY! But anyway she asked me...'what IF once you're back to claim me and no longer leave me alone, and YOU decide to PROPOSE to ME? What will my answer be? I'm curious too.. YOU want to know? Claim me back and find out? bluek! But i think you know me best Dear... "i know you want me..you know i want cha!!" then again..like i say..you know roughly what's my plan... YOU still WANT ME right..? Hehe, i don't know what HE has in hold for us, but insyallah we'll find out in time to come. I'm loving you tonight and the rest of the nights...
Your warmth is my addiction,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
