I've called a source in trying to know where you are... but she's not very useful...not a single bit. So all i can do now is to await news from your brother. I'm going nuts. I literally have difficulty breathing now. I though i woke up stronger, but guess what i drop on my knees all over again.
I'm trying to no longer let my tears flow, but my hears won't stop aching. One thing for sure, my heart is numb, numb to anything else but you. For my own good, i think i'm not going to collect your jacket from the office, i think i'll leave it till Monday.
Dear, you wanna know something? I'm letting paranoid get over me. Am i just too weak till i've turn to find any single reason to stop me from missing you. I'm going to try to be as strong as you are. PS: Today my mum cooked your favorite... i can just imagine your jealousy right now... But till we get into proper contact again.. i won't stop missing you.
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
