Dear, Guess who added me on facebook? Your dearly beloved ms neighbour at ghim moh. What does she want from me? Give you away..? You're not even here with me... What does she want? Frankly, i'm down enough, she does not have to be a bitch...cause i'll be the better bitch. I mean can't she wait till you're back then start her drama, what can i do for her...? Give her your pictures? Oh wait..she won't need me for that, she's your neighbour...she can just go knocking on your door. I don't know...arggg! She didn't affect me but it's just that i'm really down now...and then she comes popping out...when will YOU be popping back to me?! Tomorrow is Sunday...and frankly i'm trying to avoid Monday, i don't know how to face work... frankly..i would feel just like cabbing to and fro, so i don't have to meet anyone..talk to anyone and face anyone..all i wanna do is go to work and be back home. This is how fragile i am without you. I know i started the day by being strong and all... but this "strong" act ends now..for today.. Is this how it's gonna be? Strong at the start then fall back on my knees at the end of the day.... How many times do i have to fall? Should i really be filled with bruises then i'll be really happy.... WHY? WHY ME? WHY YOU? WHY US? WHY NOW? WHY NOT BEFORE I MET YOU? Dear...i'm sorry..i complaint too much..I'M SORRY REALLY AM... i always tend to ignore people's feelings and only care about my own and happily shoot my mouth all just cause i'm in a bad mood. I know probably you yourself don't feel good now... As much as i wanna complaint on and on... at the same time, i don't want to get you worried over me... But i need somethings from you to be strong... i need you to tell me to be strong. Please... Ya allah....may he be in a good place, may his journey be a smooth one...forgive him if he's been bad..but i know he's change...a different person from who he was from the past. Ya allah, give me the strength please... Ya allah, i'm willing to go through this trial..and i think so does he...but give us the strength to go through this too... Dear, please don't push me away, not now..not ever..please... I know how at times you think, it will be better for me..if you push me away..guess what...I WON'T BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU... so if you want me fine...if you want me happy...DON'T PUSH ME AWAY.
Okay, i'm done being the emotional female...time to tell you something funny, hehe, just now me follow my mummy go my cuz house...and yipee..my slipper broke! Dear..my slipper broke...and then when going home..i just walk bare-footed cross the traffic light to the bus stop..YEAP..I WALK BARE FOOTED..macam kat kampung gitu...haha! But i hope nobody took pic and place it in stomp lah... shy noeee! Then me mummy still wanna go Chong Pang, cause there got Pasar Malam, so she want to buy Ramly Burger for my bro..then with my broken slipper i walk like some retard...and surprisingly...i had to walk a distance before i found a shop that actually sold slippers! Haizz...what a day..for me... But at the end of the day..only you know what affects me most... at the end of the day, i'm still worried about you. But just to let you know...i've been good, and i am kinda taking care of myself. So please give me any form of news about you soon. I need to know... i really do. I'm going nuts.
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
