Dear,
Remember how i always like to google the different accommodations that we offer and then i told you Cinderella told me to find out this resort in Phillipines, a resort that's so beautiful and it's only in asia! The moment i saw the pictures, i intercom you and told you to google it ASAP! You spoilt my moment at first saying sarcastically to me saying why would i wanna go to "Peace Island" sounds like some graveyard when actually the resort's name is AmanPulo! I got upset cause i was so delighted when i saw the place... But in the end you cheered me up, cause you say we'll go together one day, once you've settled your issues and once i'm more grown up?! LOL. So..like how you remember the things that i've said, i am keeping in mind what you told me too... When you're back i want you to pamper me a lot! YOU OWE ME!
I'm just wondering though...Dear..which part of the world are you exactly at now?! I'm here and you're somewhere there... So once you're done there, come back here...claim me back...then the next time you wanna go anywhere else..bring me along! But remember to get permission from Haji Daddy Cool & Hajah Mummy Rango! I sincerely hope after all this, we'll have a better happy ending... and we'll be like any other lovers, having our own typical fights and quarrels... The truth though, i don't know what will happen in a year's time or after that... but i think we'll get the answers only when we finally get to face each other... So now i'm not going to assume things and dump you like that..i'll wait.. Remember how you were always mad and get so upset when i say you would dump me..and you keep emphasizing..it's the situation that will dump us! I know you want the best of me...i know you told me..if i found someone better you told me to take a step forward... You told be before that as long as i'm happy ...you're willing to take a step back...actually knowing you...you don;t even mind running away from me..as long as i'm happy right!! You're so selfish at times! Bluek! Guess what...i've join the obsessive club too! Ain't gonna let you run.i'll chase after..got it?! Just wanted to tell you, i'm stronger now..really am...are you?! You better be... Speaking of obsessive, i miss you being so protective over me.. i remember how much i had to console you and convince you that..... bluek!
As usual i'm in my own world, feeling-feeling kay..haha...so ya...whee..after so long i finally had a good sleep. My heart ain't clear but at least my mind is and that's all i need. There's so many things in my head that i want to do...just to fill up my time..but will i actually do it? i've no idea at all... One thing for sure, i need more than work to fill my time... hmm... i need partner in crimes for that... Cause i am a weakling that can't be a loner nor do things alone... In fact now i think i would need a lunch date during work...i can't bear eating alone especially when MR FBI left his traces all along...
Some would say time flies,
Some would say it's a long duration,
What i would say is that it's a journey,
I expect the best,
But if outcome is meant to be of another way, then it's my fate,
I'll accept and move on,
Insya-allah, i'll be there for you as much as you need me too...
Even if it's just being there spiritually, i'll be content too..
I'll be strong for you,
So i need you to be strong too.
Till we get back in communication,
Don't disappoint me,
We're under the same sku, the same clouds,
So whenever i miss you, i'll just look up and say...
I love you...
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
