i miss you. then again i always miss you. i took 2 days MC. If you had the chance will you come running back to me even if it's for a while just to tell me to be strong. As that's what i need from you now. You're the one who always dared to look me in the eye and tell me to step up, smile...
till now no news yet, i'm going nuts. I've a horrible headache. As much as i have no reason to cheer up about, i don't want you to feel any pain that i'm feeling now. People keep telling me time flies, well in my world, time is crawling.
Dear, i can't stop looking at our pictures and texts, i would wake just to check my hp if there's any news from your brother... if only.... I've always imagine the day when you would come to claim me back and how i would hug you so tightly and not let you go. It's painful, but i'll always crave for the day when you will open up your arms wide for me and never let me go again, and to never leave my side again. I'll always remember
I'm trying to crawl my back up and stand, but it's no easy. One thing for sure, i'm bound to drop and faint...i was about too drop today, but i can't..i'm home...don't want mummy to worry too much. But how much can longer can i pretend, how much longer do i have to endure. The duration..is stuck in my head. ALL I WANT IS TO TAKE A LOOK AT YOU, I WANT TO KNOW YOUR WELL BEING. THAT'S MOST IMPORTANT TO ME.
If you feel the same way as i do then don't...cause it's enough for me to endure the pain, i don't to have to worry for you enduring the same kind of pain. All i want is your smile & well-being.
"A night is just a night that always remain the same to most people but to me every single night is like a memory retraction, time to remember your daily and your past moment that make you smile or happy"
"Once i'm back , you will bet i'll make you mine and never leave you again!"
The truth? I'm dead inside. Like i said, it's not a life without you. But for now, till you're back, i'm going to try to live...for you..
Loving and missing you Dear.
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
