Dear,
I miss your company, i really do... I went to work today, i didn't had much to do, so i read through our previous convos, and i smiled to myself.. i miss you telling me to take care of myself, have enough sleep, get up early for work... and not staying out too late... When i'm down or sad, you'll get work up and you will expect me to tell you, which i would, cause i don't wanna ever keep anything from you. I went for early lunch today with your ms C (your admirer), & she ask me where you go? All i said was that you're on long leave... then she ask me again..so he's coming back...? and i just nod in agreement.. then randomly she say.. "he's getting married ar...? long leave..." my jaw drop..and obviously i said NO! the least you could do before you got married is give me a warmth hug right! Okie....no..Dear, don't dump me..pls. i need you more than ever. Ppl over @ AE will randomly come asking me..where you..when you will be back? I'm keeping strong as a facade...in office..i can smile and laugh as usual.. But do you know how i am inside? I'm fine on my own, but i'll be better with you... You're the one who i can just randomly rant to anytime i want. You're the only one i want to be dependent on.. allow me to do so please.. till you're back or till you decide to actually consider and remember to claim me back.. i'm on my own. Literally on my own. I want to go out, i want to have fun & every single time i remind myself, how it would be nice to have you beside me, looking out for me..taking care of me no matter how clumsy i am..i'll still be able to count on you to pull me back up. I need you so much. I've stop the tears from flowing, my heart is stoned/numb...but it's so numb that it actually hurts more than ever. I wonder if you're thinking/missing me too.. I need to know what you're up to now... please.. i don't know how to put it in words, but it'll just be better if you'll be back soon... i'm waiting and crave to be back into your arms please... For now, you take care please.
Times when you realise, only you understand yourself..
When you want to put into words, nobody lays the board out..
So i'm keeping my scrabble letters to myself.
I'll be strong even if it's just for my own sake.
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman
