Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I think i'll be alright...
Candles by Hey Monday
The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Could't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
One day
You will wake up
With nothing but you’re sorries
And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
I've a new set of playlist on my phone that just lets me cool down and let me have the peace that i want and need. Music is the perfect medicines that can minimise the pain inflicted on your soul.
I've not been in touch via Twitter nor Facebook, it feels a bit weird, but i just need to get away from things till i've got myself settled. I'm not losing it, i just need to listen to myself for once...
Things have changed the day i've graduated from ITE, everyone's growing up, a fact which i've difficulty adapting too... Things have gotten more personal and adds more responsibilities... I shall say responsibilities instead of burden? My family shall never be a burden to me... My family....things ain't just the same.
I've left this blog quite a while ago, i'm glad i can actually come back and just continue ranting... A place where not many knows? Maybe...or maybe not?
Obligations in your life, prioritise them right.
On the other hand, i'm actually worried about my interview tomorrow, i'm not sure what to do...or what to say...i'm not sure what's gonna happen tomorrow...
Okay, i've to calm down....i can't lead myself into a mess again...
I do not expect anyone to understand me..besides my family of course...
But yeap, all i can say, situation hasn't been the same ...
I'm more paranoid... YES! I'VE BEEN OVER PARANOID...OVER THE WRONG THINGS...OR SHALL I SAY PARANOID OVER THE THINGS THAT ALL OF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT...
I don't like leaving my mum home alone at times...especially when i know i can just stay home.. Cause i know how lonely it can me to be inside a house that you call home..but yet you're all alone.
I'm gonna reveal myself a bit to you..bloggy! I've a serious attitude problem...i love my dad..i really do! I don't know...can i say...i'm kind of not over the fact...that i remembered the day he told me..he can no longer spend time with me or pamper me..or bring me out as often... Then starts the bad communication..
I'll miss him when he's not at home..and i feel bad..when i know he's working so hard... but he never hesitates to hand me money... I would want to talk to him so bad...have a real conversation..but when he does...i tend to answer him rudely sometimes..and only start being nice like 5 minutes later... I'm a horrible child? YES i am...
I'm an emotional freak? Totally am.
I'm not a perfect girlfriend either... I'll only be nice when he gives me stuff..brings me out..etc... but then soon after...i'll give that stupid face.. Nope..it's not my "period" issue..it's just me.. But we won't end up fighting...i'll get the scolding...and i'll be guilty as charged...and then life goes on.. Thanx you! He's working night shift today..he ends at 8 a.m tomorrow...but he's still going to company me for my morning interview...feeling so horrible!
When i company my mum to shop, i'll do it at times for my personal benefit, i'll grab biscuits, tidbits and ice cream... My mum won't mind, as long as i'll don't waste it. But i've to admit...i tend to grab too many at times..and she still doesn't say a word...like today...i grab a whole lots of snack! All she said was, "you're like a small kid who is so jakun go shop...and go gag over a tidbits!"
Okay conclusion, i'm a spoilt brat.
I don't know what is up with my current post...i know it's a bit rojak. But i'm kinda distracted now...can't think straight. Think i'll have an early night, so hopefully...i'll start studying please..then can prepare and go off.
It's all worth a smile,
Are you willing to walk a mile,
For that someone, whom you loved,
Be a sweety pie, and at least try.
As nervous as i am,
I feel like crushing a can,
But then again, i shall not,
For i'm worth more than that,
Therefore i shall not step so low.
Signing off,
Nur Hida Sulaiman.
5:15 AM
