Recent events, has just brought a lot of thoughts to me... I already had enough on my mind, but i just keep adding on to my misery.
When you were a kid, and some adult ask you, what do you wanna be when you grow up... & with so much passion and enthusiasm you answered..."i wanna be a model, a doctor, a lawyer, a princess!'.
As for me, i would always say the same thing, that is ...either acting or get myself working in a high-end hotel & earning an executive position before i'm 30. I admit i did say i wanted to be a lawyer, a singer...a police-girl... then i realised...it's not possible to be so many things at one time. So i thought to myself..maybe i should just act...acting helps you discover so many things...diiferent views...different opinions..and a different side of life. I'm not blaming anyone..but i guess i was exposed to the Perfroming Arts a bit too late...in secondary school..i got my chance,,,i didnt get any major lead roles at first..but then..soon i did...and thought it's not as easy as it looks..i love it..i really...do... Performing is not something that me and my friends have in common..but they still stood by me and cheered me on when i got on stage... Theatre still excites me a lot...it really does...there's really so much to learn in theatre... Every single time i see a play..i'll wonder..many things..like...how are the characters alive? Without realising...some things...you simply ain't allowed to say in life...you;re allowed to express yourself in acting. If only life was as easy as theatre...then everyone would well-deserved their happy ending right?
Then i somewhat grew up...i knew i had to choose...as much as that theatre opportunity open up to me...i gave it up... & wanted to be realistic..and said...lets earn that big pay...ida! Let's work at that hotel..then i can buy mum whole lots of stuff... The point when i really grew up..and realised it's not as simple... Frankly..right now..i'm too scared to even try.... As much as i wanna expose myself...i really literally afraid to face the light...
Heard the saying..."Be the change you want to see in the world"?...well start small... & be the change that you want to see in your own life. Yes, it's easier to say than to actually do it..but it's worth a try right?
At the end of the day, i don't know what i'm trying to say... I just need to clear all these bubbles in my head..
I consider myself to still be the best actor in my life...as i'm still able to give everyone that smile that they would want or expect from me...
I'm still me..just different.
Signing off, Nur Hida Sulaiman.
3:16 AM
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