At times it just ain't easy to just talk it out, cause there's always times when your emotions is all so messed up and you, yourself do not know what's going on. People tend to tell you...talk about it, express yourself, even i myself would tell that to my friends, but it's the point when i do not judge and i just would give my honest opinion or the situation looks like from my point of view... Then i move on. I believe everybody has their own perception on what is best for their life.
However, i'm so used to just listening to people's rantings & problems, then somehow it's just leading me to just sitting in a corner & smiling to everything. I'm going to continue smiling as a fake proof that i'm okay. There's lots of things on my mind...in fact there's a whole lot of scrabble going on in my brain right now...
Yeah sure, i've a boyfriend, i'm supposed to be able to tell him about anything and everything right... But i'm at the point of life, where i do not want to burden anyone...anyhow. Yes, he cheers me up, he has ways of brightening my day. But in the end, when i am back home in my own world, my random deep-thinking thoughts just start flowing.
Yes i love my friends, they're dependable... they're lovely people... But again, who am i to barge in their lives and start ranting. I don't deserve that privilege. They've a life of their own.
I'm a mess, a horrible mess. I do not know where is my stepping stone. Pretentious is all i can be now. I've regrets i do...i've dissapoint important people in my lives before... But one thing for sure, it's not stopping me from moving on...as the journey open my path up to meet wonderful people whom i've make friends with...
I used to think, nothing is sweeter than life than Candy, Family & Friends. I still think soo... but i guess i'm on new self-discovering "journey" for my "Candy".
I'm not interested in being a hypocrite, so whatever i said, if it stab your heart, forgive me. But hey, you gotta stop pondering why there's even people who want to even try and stab you... and maybe..just maybe, you should start thinking have you ever step on people's toes before.. Our shoes size maybe similar, but that don't mean we walk or run the same way. You may run faster than me, but i could walk myself into an even better adventure. I sound like giving up, maybe i am...maybe i'm not.. But one thing for sure...i'm still trying to find myself a stepping stone.
Pretentious as i may be... Life's still wonderful... As the Earth stilll rotates... The Moon still shines beside the stars... And after every rainy day, you'll see a rainbow... Appreciate life even when you're down.
Signing off, Nur Hida Binte Sulaiman.
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Simply Me
I'm one who have said things and done things...Been proven right, been proven wrong, still learning about life... Wants the best out of most things... Loves the people around me.. Make them upset and you'll be hearing from me!
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They prove to be a good friend and always help the person in need. They expect nothing in return. This quality in them keeps no one annoyed with them for too long.
They are fun loving and boundaries often denies them of happiness. They are quite moody and react to the same situations differently due to their moods. They are a mixed blend of humor, intellect and honesty. They are fun loving and it is difficult to keep them concentrated on a single situation for too long.They are innocent and speak up what is in their mind. They seem to be a little confused. They speak out harshly unintentionally making the person offended.
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