It's tiring enough to hate you, it's way more tiring to hate your actions. Start appreciating her, before i blurt every single thing i know. I may still be immature to you, but you'll start to remorse & regret once i blurt everything out. You cause major pain to the one who brought you up. You do not know, cause you're not home most of the time. I'm pretty protective of her. So please turn over a new leaf, compared YOU to the rest of us, we have the humilty, we're remorse if we have ever hurt her before, we try to make things up to her...& we're always try not to be SELFISH with her. We're in a LIFETIME DEBT with her. Think about it. Which is why at times, i refuse to stay at home. You're the once causing the chaos, i've got to be the one who has to understand & share the pain.
I refused to grow up at times.
Nur Hida Sulaiman.
7:41 PM
Monday, October 18, 2010
One thing after another
Oh, dear god, whatever trials you puttin me into right now... im not strong enough.. but i'll get over it..i guess... Just show me that bit of hope please... im hurtin myself...im so lost...
8:07 AM
For crying out loud...
I guess at times, its just nice to really type it out. As much as i just wanna talk it all out so i can mumble & mumble... If people ask me why, all i can say is "i don't know..." i really don't
I don't know why i became so vulnerable. This sux, it really does... I miss having real friends to stress out with, i miss sharing with them the latest gossips in class, i miss having buddies in class, i miss being scolded & nagged at just so i'll study.. Don't be mistaken i do have friends, i do..in fact they're really lovely people.. Just that i dont think i've the right to barge in their lives with my stupid emotional issues..
I thought i got over the current situation that i'm at... But i didnt I've lost my interest, i dont know what to do, i simply dont wanna grown up.. I used to tok about what i wanna do & where i wanna go... But now its like i want time to freeze, i dont wanna move on... I'm too freaking sensitive to let my surroundings affect me... I'm a person dependent on my friends. Without them i seem like a nobody... I've no identity...i lost myself..
I screw up big time, once again im gonna dissapoint my mum...im sorry..i really...am... How i wish i could be simple & just not think too much.......
I screw up, i bet i'll say i do better...but...i'm not sure if i really do it..
Oh god...please help me,..i've not beeen very loyal & obedients...but just let me know that i've still have hope... thanx....
Nur Hida signing out.
6:23 AM
Nur Hida !
young as i wanna be / 29/11/hater / proud / nice / friendly / Proud Saggitarius/ Simply Not Available, My heart is numb.(:
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I'm one who have said things and done things...Been proven right, been proven wrong, still learning about life... Wants the best out of most things... Loves the people around me.. Make them upset and you'll be hearing from me!
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